Aside

Wow, has it been a month already? “It’s hard?” you hear me say? “It’s supposed to be hard?” you hear me respond to myself? Right, well, yes, that’s been my latest internal dialog…on repeat. But why is it hard, really? To make those first steps, to commit to something you’re unsure about – fear of abject disappointment and/or embarrassment for failing yet again?

 

Listening to others around me I think it’s really a form of apathy. Yes, of course, we all want things to change, but to make them change we have to change, and honestly it takes effort to overcome the inertia of familiarity – of staying how we are, where we are, and what we know of ourselves, and actually of those around us because in truth when we change those around us are forced to adapt in one way or another as well. They can either hang around and hang on, or be left by the wayside.

There aren’t that many things I want – I want to be a good example to my children, a  good wife to my husband, and be of service to others; I want to spend time with my family, I want to write a book. travel and maybe even take an acting class or two. But in the end (after attending literally a dozen funerals in less than a year) I realize I want my family to know NOW that I love them, and to remember that love when I’m gone. And this takes me back to the beginning…how am I going to get what I want without taking a step?

What do you want and what first step do you need to take to get start you off in the right direction. And if you’ve taken that step then congratulations! You’re further than most others who are still only dreaming.

Now, what’s the next step?  🙂

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